¹⁹ Have you been thinking all along that we are trying to defend ourselves before you? We are speaking before God in the authority of^[a] the Messiah,^[b] and everything, dear friends, is meant to build you up. ²⁰ I am afraid that I may come and somehow find you not as I want to find you, and that you may find me not as you want to find me. Perhaps there will be quarreling, jealousy, anger, selfishness, slander, gossip, arrogance, and disorderly conduct. ²¹ I am afraid that when I come my God may again humble me before you and that I may have to grieve over many who formerly lived in sin and have not repented of their impurity, sexual immorality, and promiscuity that they once practiced.