1 Maccabees 6:9-13

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⁹ He lay there for many days because deep disappointment continually gripped him, and he realized that he was dying.^{(A) 10} So he called all his Friends and said to them, “Sleep has departed from my eyes, and I am downhearted with worry.^{(B) 11} I said to myself, ‘To what distress I have come! And into what a great flood I now am plunged! For I was kind and beloved in my power.’ ¹² But now I remember the wrong I did in Jerusalem. I seized all its vessels of silver and gold, and I sent to destroy the inhabitants of Judah without good reason.^{(C) 13} I know that it is because of this that these misfortunes have come upon me; here I am, perishing of bitter disappointment in a strange land.”